Why depression is confusing.

Things you might relate to if you have depression and anxiety.

1. Just leave me the HECK alone and stop treating me like a child!! Well, at least until I am feeling down and then I probably am going to need your immediate attention for an extended period of time. I also wouldn't mind if you would tuck me in and treat me like a parent would their sick baby.

2. I promise I will not flake on you if the thing you want from me is in the next five minutes.

3. I just had the most life altering idea! Now I am going to take a nap and hope I forget it so that I can once again be content with the life I can mostly manage.

4. You can tell me that you are sorry I have depression, but it might help me more if you laughed with me at the ridiculousness of this horrific situation. The trick is to pretend we're all on a sit-com.

Mindfulness

I'm breathing deeply. My fingers are on the keys of our new keyboard. The buttons are flatter on this one. The click sounds different. I kind of like the feel. It isn't quite as good or easy I mean, to keep your fingers on the keys. My fingers slide more than I would like. There is music playing softly in the background . The computer is humming. That sound is comforting to me for some reason. It reminds me of quiet late nights. Everything is asleep, but the computer is still working. I took the fleece layer out of my winter coat today. It kind of makes that cold rustle sound every time my leg bounces. It sure feels good to breathe. I  can't believe how empty my head feels. It feels like I have just drunk something really cold and clear- but into my head instead of my belly.